I've been trying to set aside time to learn the basic translation of shemona esrei with Chana, and it's been slow going.
Today, though, the translations of "elokai neshama" and "hamaapil" came up naturally. We had some very interesting conversations about it. Chana's mind is incisive and delightful.
Sometimes, I think something "needs" to get done, but really, other things get done instead.
And things that come up naturally are processed differently by the brain, remembered differently, and have a different affect associated with them.